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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-27 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
[The question makes him shake his head, reiterating his words silently. He listens as Vash describes his own experience with hunting and the hunger. And they're alike there, as well. Feeding bit by bit. Luckily for Pure Vanilla his needs are meat, and though he only takes from the food banks what he needs to quiet the rising frenzy, he never takes more than that.]

This place...

[He sighs, lowering his cup to reach out, fingers gliding along the tray until he finds the small liquor bottle. The amount of gin he adds is only a small bit - he's horrible with holding his alcohol - before he puts it aside, sips his drink. Lets the steam from the tea bath his face.]

I am a healer... From love brings growth, renewal. I shield those around me. I vowed to make lives better for everyone, to ease their pains... Not cause them.

[Lavender looks between the two, sensing the solemn mood, and gets up to fetch his toy. It squeaks ridiculously as he jumps back up, to deposit it on top of Vash's foot, then lay his head on top of it. Comfort.]

I eat from the food bank. When the urge to hunt becomes overwhelming, I seek out a farm at the end of the city and... and headbutt the farmer into the ditch. Then free his sheep, and run off.

[He sounds ashamed a little, his cheeks red. He's never told anyone that.]

I have only killed once, before this event. The Fog Gods followers were free from their town, and like ghosts, were passing through us. They caused many of us to frenzy. But even then... the death was quick.

[Claws to the throat, opening the jugular. Not the faint memory of screaming and begging, while mushrooms grew around them.]

This world is built on misery, and forces us to be our worst selves... and I'm sorry. I'm sorry you're caught up in it, that you walked a similar path as I, and were forced to break your vow. I understand how it feels, and I wish I could take it back for you, my friend.
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-27 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
[The moment he hears the jitter of the teacup against metal, he sets his own down to reach out. Gently, carefully, he takes the metal hand in his. Holds it with both to steady it, offer Vash reassurance.

And he's quiet as he listens to Vash explain something horrible happened because of him, his expression non-judgemental. Just sad.]


But you already are. The moment you looked upon what had happened, and said "I want to be better". And then you kept to it, did you not? You said you vowed to never take another life again. You may not see it, it is truly hardest to look at ourselves and see the good around what we believe to be flaws, but I feel you have lived up to it.

[He won't ask if Vash caused it deliberately, accidentally, or simply by existing. He refuses to judge someone. Instead he offers Vash a smile, an actual true smile, untainted with the twisted love of before.]

I do not know your entire story, I will not judge what this place made you do, but if your love was so complete that in this worlds way, taking them out of it to spare them misery was the only thing it made you do... Then I think you are a better person. More than you think.

[He didn't dig his fingers into someone, peel them open like grotesque candy wrappers, all while decrying that their pain was right and just if they wanted peace.]
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-27 10:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[Silence as Pure Vanilla listens, his heart aching for the other. Unfortunately, Vash is right. There's no availing himself of the food bank, not with energy. Does he have a secondary mouth? That may help... he will ask about it later, suggest it. For now, he simply holds the metal and bone hand tight, attempting to help anchor Vash in some way.

The 'not what I expected' makes Pure Vanillas eyebrows raise a little, and he sighs softly.]


I am not surprised, I believe my alternate self was...

[He shakes his head, not finishing the thought. Forward. Vicious. Commanding. Everything Dark Enchantress is. He doesn't want to think of who that was. It's not him. Instead he focuses on Vash, his eyes finally opening in reflex, gold and blue staring uncannily at Vash, but also seeming to look through him, beyond him. As if he could still see to the heart of someone, to see the truth of them.]

It is never easy, and continuing on the path will be a struggle. But you have people around you to help — hands to hold, shoulders to lean on — when the path gets rocky. Do not be afraid if you stumble. It's not a failure, nor a setback. And there's no need to run, for it's not a race. And my friend - Vash. Forgive yourself. Please.
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-28 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
[The squeeze and then the other hand joining in makes Pure Vanillas expression soften. He won't deny the other the comfort of touch. He spent time in a void, deprived of his senses for so many years... he knows what it feels like to yearn for anothers touch. So he shifts to wind his fingers in with Vash's, takes a tighter hold.]

You are, and that's all I can ask of you for now. And I'm proud of you for trying. Because indeed, I know how hard it is to forgive yourself when you feel you've failed... everyone.

[His kingdom in ruins, his citizens dead or fled. He wasn't there when they needed him the most. He failed them. He failed her. He failed-

He swallows and shakes his head, squeezing hands together lightly.]


But I promise you, the people around you will help you lift the weight a bit. Seek them when you need reassurance, when you need a reminder you're doing well. Don't hesitate to lean on them. On us.

[He knows he's a hypocrite.]
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-28 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
[A lot in common, and once again Pure Vanilla is pulled back in thought to the ideal that this world calls to like beings. Similar worlds, similar hearts.

Vash offering the same to Pure Vanilla makes the Minotaurs smile blossom more. Something that seems like it's more familiar on his face than all his softer half smiles and unsure ones. Like the man is more at home beaming and laughing.

Maybe that tiny bit of gin is finally soaking into the lightweight, and relaxing him, as well.]


There is no need to thank me, but if you insist, then please accept my thanks as well. I promise, should I have a need, I shall call on you. And I agree. When I say my friend, I truly mean it. I'm afraid there is no shaking me once I have decided.

[Maybe he's decided they should no longer dwell on the past. It will haunt them, forever. He knows this, and he can speak of forgiving themselves all he wants, but late at night, when it's just them in their beds and they're trying to sleep. He knows the nightmares will come.

So he's going to focus on the here, the now, on making this moment as friendly and pleasant as possible. He squeezes Vash's hands, and aims the smile like a sunbeam at him. Steer the conversation away from pain.]


And since I have deemed you my friend, please tell me more about yourself!
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-28 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
[Vash not being interesting makes Pure Vanilla hm! in disbelief. But it's a good-natured sound, and is accompanied with a small little tail wiggle. Feeling his hand be dropped, he's about to pull them both back when he realizes Vash is still holding onto the other. And since he's quite comfortable with the contact, he doesn't see any need to remove it. So he just makes his hand more comfortable, fingers folding in with Vash's.]

That isn't morbid in the least! A good friend of mine was quite skilled with a gun himself, as though my world is mostly peaceful, we still have to fight off monsters, so it's quite handy to know how to use weapons!

[Reaching out with his free hand, he finds his tea cup to bring it back up to his lips, angling himself as he does to be a little more body facing Vash. He ends up kneeing Lavender, causing the cakepup to awaken with a start and give them both the most scrunked look a cakepup can give. He hops down and waddles off to find someplace else to rest. Rude.]

Oh, your food is similar to this worlds! Unless your pizza happens to be sweet pizza? Tell me of your world, if you are all right speaking of it?
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-28 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
[He can't see the motion, but the pew-pew makes him smile and he can imagine a distraction, pausing in his sip of his tea so he doesn't laugh into it towards how exuberant Vash is.]

Ah! That's quick thinking, and a brilliant strategy! Minimizing the amount of physical damage done, while providing additional cover!

[And maybe he will keep the 'sweet' pizza of his homeworld to himself. Jellybeans with cream cheese, after all... He's quiet, respectful, as he listens to Vash describe his world. A large desert planet?]

It sounds quite like the Sugarfree Road. Dry and hot, a desert of reds and oranges, barren but beautiful with its twisting cliffs. There are a few villages out there, waypoints for Pilgrims, and each one is as hospitable as the next.

[His voice is wistful as he speaks, and he leans back into teh couch, his arm pressed against Vashs, their hands still clasped between them. He sips at his tea, before smiling against the porcelain cup.]

This world must be quite a surprise for you.
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-28 11:20 pm (UTC)(link)
['Wanted Criminal' makes Pure Vanilla arch an eyebrow, but his expression is amused and he hides his smile behind his cup a little. Though it's obviously there by the way his face crinkles, and there's a faint giggle underlying his words. Of course he does believe him, but he might tease a little, since they've established they're friends.]

Of course, mistaken identity. It happens often?

[The fact Vash knows Sparkling isn't a surprise, Sparkling is friends with everyone, and he feels proud of the fact. It's only fitting, the other Cookie is beyond charming. Pure Vanilla's head tilts a little to 'bio-domes', and he images a greenhouse. A place of life in amongst a barren land. It's lovely in his minds eye, even if he's slowly beginning to lose the details of what things look like.

And his expression is downright tender as he images Vash doing his best to help. Through all his perceived flaws, through mistake identity and being wanted... he keeps trying to help.]


I can imagine. To be taken from a world where water is scarce or even non-existent, to a place where it's found in abundance. I quite understand being shocked!

[He smiles in memory to his own arrival, and how strange it was for a few months after. Crossing his legs at the knee, he settles his cup on one, beaming as a thought comes to him.]

I assume this means you have never experienced ice?

[Winter is coming...]
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-29 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Okay. He can hear the pout in the words and that does make Pure Vanilla laugh, a good-natured "I do believe you" sound. He's mostly laughing at the pouting he hears. Ah, the evil twin. Classic. Vash with an evil mustache. However that looks.

He sobers a little as he thinks of Vash's world, when he says that's how life should have been like. No hardships. No struggles. A world of life, of peace. Everything in abundance, and no one wants for anything.

The ideal. He squeezes Vash's hand tightly, and offers him a smile.]


I know someday your world will reach that life. Keep faith, and keep aiding as much as you are able.

[And once Vash confirms he's never seen ice? Oh, the Minotaur perks, his ears standing upright like little excited exclamation marks.]

Sometimes, though I have yet to experience a bitter cold here. However, you must let me take you ice skating when the lake freezes over. It is an experience one must try at least once!

[And that's nothing to say about snow ball fights, or snow angels, or snow huts.]
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-29 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
[People will suffer. It makes Pure Vanilla grimace a little, as he tightens his hold again, leaning lightly in against Vash's side. They definitely shouldn't think about it. Not right now. So he's glad when the idea of ice-skating distracts the man. It also makes Pure Vanilla bound and determined to keep the distractions up, every time Vash's mind begins to wander back to his home.

He sort of regrets asking him about it, but only because it seems a sore subject.]


Hm! I must admit, I am not that great myself, but that means we can learn together! Of course...

[He lifts the leg that was draped over the other, somehow managing to avoid whacking the table with it, to show off his hoof.]

It does not help when these are your feet. You will not be alone in slipping and sliding, my friend!

[His tea is gone, and so is the gin he added to it. So if he decides not to sit back upright after leaning in against Vash, well. Sue him. At least his wool is soft, clean, and smells of vanilla.]
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-29 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
[The lean back in appreciated, honestly. So is the fact Vash didn't pull away from Pure Vanillas lean. He's quite a tactile person now. Touch has become his main source of sight, comfort, and care. On top of that, being a sheep has made him quite social and desiring of closeness.

And truthfully, it's just simply nice to lean against someone, and share warmth and camaraderie with them. With their hands still tightly laced together.]


... I wonder if I can. There are quite a few cobblers around who have had experience with us hooved Afflicted.

[He ponders the idea, head tilted as if he can see the waffle coned patterned keratin. Visions of breaking his ankle come to mind, and he snorts softly.]

However... it may yet be safer to simply stick with my hooves.

[He lowers his leg and ha's! softly, not at all minding the little jiggle from the chuckle.]

Nonsense, you may complain all you desire. It sounds like you were not given many chances to develop something more spatially aware of yourself and your limbs. Have you ever danced?
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-29 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[He hums a little laugh as well in reply to the idea that they'd both come out of it mucked up.]

Let us both strive to avoid breakage, then. Bruises will be on par for the course! As well as bumps, I am sure! But do not worry about me getting hurt, I have taken my fair share of injuries!

[How many shields he failed to get off in time while a fresh faced adventurer? Crunched and cracked dough. He shakes his head a little and tilts it when he feels Vash shift his back, ears twisting towards him as he mentions growing up fast? Literally? Something for a later moment to ask about, as Vash moves on from it quickly.

But the reply? That no? Makes Pure Vanilla beam.]


Then, let's fix that, shall we? There's is no better time to learn to dance! You never know when it will come in handy!

[Forewarning.

He finally lets go of Vash's hand, after another brief squeeze, so he can push himself to his feet.]


Please, give me a moment to change into something less bulky [His sweater is beginning to overheat him finally] and feel free to remove your jacket?

[He'll move off into his bedroom, closing the door behind him. It won't take him long to remove his bulkier outer clothes and switch into something lighter, a flowing shirt and a similar flowing cotton pants, that swish around his legs as he moves back into the living room. And he quite easily pushes his coffee table out of the way, the couch following suit, before moving over to his record player to pick some music.

You're in for it now, Vash. Pure Vanilla is nicely gin'd and in a mood.]
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[personal profile] purevanillacookie 2023-09-30 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, don't worry! I have quite a bit of experience. I may not look it now, but once upon a time I was a King, and formal dancing was quite often a thing.

[There's a little bit of wistfulness in his voice, as he sets some nice classical onto the player, flipping it on and setting the needle down. His ears flick lightly as he moves away, over to where he heard Vash's voice.]

And we will be starting small. The waltz box step, which is the basic for all waltzes.

[He reaches out, then pauses, head tilted in thought.]

It is much easier to learn while being led, but I understand some people are uncomfortable with it. I can easily direct you while allowing you to lead, if you prefer.

[Either one, he's finding one of Vash's hands with his own and stepping in close. His other hand hovers, waiting for Vash to decide on what he'd like, so he knows where to place it.]

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